Guilt, Memories, and Moving Forward You will forget to be wrong one day, but will regret for the past wrong you have done, now you know what big mistake you have done and the difference between what to do and whats not. Those are the most dangerous feeling I ever deal with. It’s so hard to bear these guilty memories and feelings. Its like the line of “Waiting For the End” when Emily is singing with the misery around her eyes on stage. ...

Solitude, Mistakes, and Quiet Waters My feelings are not as pure as the air of this lake. My past is not as buoyant as the water of this lake. There is nothing in my life that makes me stand as proud as these benevolent plants. My life is just full of mistakes and mistakes which separate me from others like mentally unbalanced person. There is no joy in my life that is so terrifying as the long nights in Iceland. ...

A Conversation Over Bullet Tea I used to drink tea in a tea stall located beside Fruit and Vegetable Market at Notun Bazar, Mymensingh. I usually drink tea and spent little time only two tea stall in Mymensingh City, It is one of two. It’s a little famous tea stall in entire city, there are different types of politics centered by this stall. Many people are come to drink tea here. Yesterday was not exceptional I just put step in the stall to drink some tea, Meanwhile I were suffering headache for an unknown reason; so I ordered a Bullet Tea (Made by Tamarind and Green Pepper) and waiting for the tea. ...

A Rough Day, an Encounter, and Clarity It’s Wednesday, I woke up 5:30 am and slept again 6:00 am. Again rose up at 11:00 am. Got fresh and took breakfast. Then immediately had go to our District Commissioner about a claim. But he wasn’t in his office, assistant said he had to go to Dhaka. I set my step back to home. Meanwhile I was suffering forehead very badly. Feeling little stress about my career and future step. ...

An Unexpected Encounter with Mr. Asad It was really pleasure to got Mr. Asad. I was drinking Date Juice in Boro-Bazar Road, Mymensingh. Suddenly, He came and ask me how was the drink. I was totally surprised to see him. He was Known to me as very honest politician in a Rural area of Trisal sub-district. People are satisfied with his service as a Chairman of a Union Parishad. I have noticed many things during 2018 to 2022. After 2022, I used to avoid social media specially Facebook. From 2018, when we made our friendship in Facebook at 2022, I never saw him directly anywhere although we are living in a same City. But yesterday 19 January 2025 we made a good memory. ...

Reflections on Distance and Longing I could not touch that border; which awakens the senses when touched. Everything of value is neglected, Simple imperfection is forced, Incarcerated in a low intelligence prison, What a strange destruction under the pressure of surrounding stupidity. I can’t see that scene; Which can defeat my failure. I can’t feel those feelings; Which is life or way of living. The objects of folly are precious creatures; Waiting and talking to myself; A lot of planned confusion has been going around for many years! ...

Memories of an Unconditional Bond We belong a sweet story of friendship. There was no confusion, no hesitation or any repeat question in our relationship. Which build our relation on the pillar of believe. We have some great moments where we lived that time. There is no commitment, there’s no responsibility, no doubt, no anxiety at all. We just lived in our own freedom, great understanding, unreasonable communication, different thinkings about each other. Imagine a friendship like this even at 2023, that was amazing with unstoppable feelings. When I am thinking about our undecided feelings, I just feel there is nothing special in my life without it. I can live only with think of it. ...

Seeking Light Beyond the Grey With sleepy eyes, in hushed stillness, I grasp a hundred elusive things, And paint a thousand images! Holding onto countless emotions, I heave a myriad of sighs; Bearing the shackles of destiny, I fearlessly seek a moment’s joy! Enduring a hundred unbearable trials, Amidst the neglect of weary faith, I exhale a poisonous breath; Yet, beyond all the greyness, I weave dreams of vibrant color— Let this earthly life remain grey; It is a colorful hereafter That I ultimately seek! ...

Questions on Forgiveness and Renewal Can you recognize him anew amidst a hundred shades of light and shadow? Can you perceive him again as a gentle breeze on a moonlit night? Can you look at him, now and then, in the quiet of the afternoon? Can you pierce through layers of mist and haze to meet his gaze anew? Can you—forgetting everything—see him as a friend once more, with an innocent heart? ...